Friday, October 03, 2003
listen | michelle branch
mann...i need to get some more cds...cdscdscds.
Staind.
3 doors down
stacie orrico
hMm. 3 day weekend. is vicky going to go visit the army place and get information? [shrugs]. connie is moving tomorrow..no more running up to vicky and randomly poking her..no more knocking on people's doors and begging for food...no more talking about random stuff. ....[sigh]. everyone's moving...everyone's leaving. ...going ..going ..gone.
threatening letters. people suspended. [sigh] man. don't write stuff down. you just need to talk to them...cus then you won't get carried away...
" When everybody's got a reason..i feel like giving up.."
everybody's changed...so much. sisi ming jessica jett teresa connie alex ...everyone came outside..or came to mark 6 and visited...they're all so different now...3 ppl from bellaire. 3 from pershing. one from lanier...everyone got into these little groups..unlike last year..when we all hung out together. this time..everyone had their own little inside jokes that no one else got...everyone was talking about how awesome school is...and ..yea.. i guess i really am missing the way things used to be...but then again..[sigh] i dont know. i just feel a little...alone. i guess...left out ?. but yet..i don't care. at least i think i do..but maybe thats just me telling myself that so i won't feel bad for myself... i guess i do sort of feel that way...
like at times when you're around some friends..they'll say hi. you say hi. then all of a sudden it's like you're no longer there anymore...and when you leave, they don't notice, like they do when one of them leaves. when you come back. they think you've been there all along...sometimes. they have all these inside jokes..and they tell it to each other and start laughing and being like " omg! yea! hahahha i remember!" right in front of you..right in front of your face. and you sit there. not understanding a word taht theyre saying... and wishing that you could be somewhere else. because there's no point in you being there. [sigh]. i don't want stuff like " omg! i'm so sorry..i didn't know! i didn't mean it!" ...i just. want them to know.
then the few people i can actually talk to... i dont have that many classes with. i have at the most..2 classes with some of them..others none.
mann...i need to get some more cds...cdscdscds.
Staind.
3 doors down
stacie orrico
hMm. 3 day weekend. is vicky going to go visit the army place and get information? [shrugs]. connie is moving tomorrow..no more running up to vicky and randomly poking her..no more knocking on people's doors and begging for food...no more talking about random stuff. ....[sigh]. everyone's moving...everyone's leaving. ...going ..going ..gone.
threatening letters. people suspended. [sigh] man. don't write stuff down. you just need to talk to them...cus then you won't get carried away...
" When everybody's got a reason..i feel like giving up.."
everybody's changed...so much. sisi ming jessica jett teresa connie alex ...everyone came outside..or came to mark 6 and visited...they're all so different now...3 ppl from bellaire. 3 from pershing. one from lanier...everyone got into these little groups..unlike last year..when we all hung out together. this time..everyone had their own little inside jokes that no one else got...everyone was talking about how awesome school is...and ..yea.. i guess i really am missing the way things used to be...but then again..[sigh] i dont know. i just feel a little...alone. i guess...left out ?. but yet..i don't care. at least i think i do..but maybe thats just me telling myself that so i won't feel bad for myself... i guess i do sort of feel that way...
like at times when you're around some friends..they'll say hi. you say hi. then all of a sudden it's like you're no longer there anymore...and when you leave, they don't notice, like they do when one of them leaves. when you come back. they think you've been there all along...sometimes. they have all these inside jokes..and they tell it to each other and start laughing and being like " omg! yea! hahahha i remember!" right in front of you..right in front of your face. and you sit there. not understanding a word taht theyre saying... and wishing that you could be somewhere else. because there's no point in you being there. [sigh]. i don't want stuff like " omg! i'm so sorry..i didn't know! i didn't mean it!" ...i just. want them to know.
then the few people i can actually talk to... i dont have that many classes with. i have at the most..2 classes with some of them..others none.
